These past two weeks have given me insight into the person I want to be and the type of individual I want to live as. I consider one is the practical "I can be this type of human" and the other is idealist; factoring in all the bests, greatest, and mosts of my life into this transformative magic being. I recognize...fully--believe it or not, that I may not EVER get to that idealist point.
Brown has taught me so much. It taught me to not second-guess my ability to be a good supervisor. I was scared to the core that I was going to single-handedly send these lovely humans on a one-way trip to a deserted island off the Arctic Sea. So far, I have managed not to do that, but after having hours of conversations with them, they renewed me in a faith that I constantly find myself losing. I am hoping that this means it is here to stay for a while...I hope.
Day 1 comes to a close as I type this post. Providence, Brown, and the people here are something to experience. Although training has just started, I imagine that the next few days will be ones where I will be craving more information and ready to see the 8,000 kids come through campus this summer.
As I embark on the next couple days, I am challenging myself to be as open as possible to what is out there for the mind. Lately, I feel like I have been stuck in this area of knowledge that is cynical and not good for someone who declares themselves a lifelong learner. I am excited for this opportunity, to supervise, to advise, and to be a part of a team that values and supports me. Am I worried because of past experiences? Sure, but those were learning opportunities as well, I just did not see them that way. Hopefully this team building retreat will assist in getting my mind moving forward. Pictures soon!